Friday, September 20, 2013

Some days are just emotional

You know, some days just are.  Some days are amazing, most actually. But then some days can be pretty rough.  Like yesterday, for example. I have no idea what was going on yesterday. From the moment we got up until the moment we went to bed it was just one of those days that left me completely exhausted. There weren't many smiles, wasn't much sleeping and a lot of tears (from both of us) which, in my opinion, is a recipe for disaster.  It's hard sometimes you know. It's like you try so hard to be a good mom and when your baby is fussy and crying so much and having a bad day, you kinda do too. It's days like yesterday that I realize how important nap schedules can be. Usually he naps in his swing twice a day. I have been trying to transition the naps into his crib so that all sleeping is done in the same place. It took me almost an hour to get him to sleep, he just wouldn't go down. Eventually I just started crying too and I gave in and nursed him to sleep.  All of this and he only slept for 40 minutes.  I was so mentally and physically exhausted and to make matters even worse, this was all before noon.  The rest of the day continued accordingly and when I finally hit the sheets, it was a beautiful thing. Some days are just emotional and all you can do is count down until that day is over and hope for a better day tomorrow, which today has proven to be.  We woke up to a new day.  Today is one of those days that I absolutely love spending all day with my baby.  I appreciate every single moment with him, even the bad ones.  I love lying on the blanket outside, watching the clouds pass.  I love when he reaches up to touch my face when he is nursing.  I love to hear him laugh when I tickle him.  I love how sweet he is when he wakes up from his nap and stretches.  I love when I catch him gazing at me.  He looks me straight in the eyes and gives me the most adorable bashful little smile.
Love continues to amaze me in a way that I never thought possible.  There are so many moments where I get so wrapped up in the love that I feel for him that I could cry.  Some days are just that emotional. :)

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